It has been a drag on morning time for the passed few days. Simply because my little one doesn’t want to go to school!!
He was the one saying “Yay!! Tomorrow starts going to school. Holiday is boring ‘cos no class.” !!! Yes, he said that the night before the school starts.
Now two weeks into school and he hates it. But that only happened in the morning hour when I was worrying that we’ll be late to school, where I need to make sure they’ve got everything in their bag, where I’ve to put my full concentration on the road. But it was also when he started whining about going to school. He started to feel stomachache, headache and even felt like throwing up! He also started to negotiate with me if he can go to my office instead. It is probably a way to escape from something, but what?
Okay, I know that wasn’t stomachache, it was just butterflies, being nervous, stressful and just basically scared of going to school. But why!?
After I prompted him with lots of questions and guessing over days, he finally reveal the real thing behind. It is not that he was lazy, in fact he’s done all his home work neatly and fervently, even kept on reminding me about putting more exercise books into his bag, his workbook is always well written with clear instructions on what his homework is. So, it couldn’t be that he is lazy. There must be something else.
After questions over questions over the past mornings, it turns out that he was (I hope this is in the past) scared of the teacher ‘cos he saw how fierce his teachers are to other students. He was shock! I suppose this is something like culture shock, huh!?
He has been in a nice, cosy, friendly, playful environment before, where he’s got used to everyone, know them well and there wasn’t that many kids in one class. He was even the assistance of his kindergarten teachers! He’s been doing really well in kindergarten, but just one thing that he wasn’t being trained to handle : – fierce, serious teachers who tried to control the situation with 40 over kids in one class without an assistance, who also concern about other kids who are nice and tame in the class, who needs protection from the teacher, but at the same time making sure that all kids listen to instructions and follow the class without fail.
So, I have been visiting him during recess time over the past few days. Talked to his class teacher. Peep from the corridor before I leave school. Have thought about getting help from other teacher, seeing the headmaster and whatever possible ways that might be able to help. But he was always okay during recess time, like the morning incident hasn’t happened, like he has always been okay since morning. He even gave me two thumbs up when I asked how was he doing!
Oh well, little kids mood change like weather huh!?
I was even questioning him how could he shout at me when we argue and yet he was so afraid of the teachers! Guess what his reply was!?
“I’m not scared of the teacher now. I don’t have butterfly in my stomach now!”
Okay! Good! Keep it that way!
I just hope that I don’t need to go through it again next week.
